shift group

future field is not promising.
I cannot enjoy studying that much.
cannot get an advise mostly.
distrust on the computation.
topic is old fashion.
may be graduating on time.
can learn computation.


Can study more and understand.
can enjoy working with people (?).
-sharing and asking ideas.
may be able to get good advise.
i am more oriented on the theory.
can have good intuition of science.
will be challenging.

it looks so obvious that
I have many reasonable reasons
to shift group.

I stay in the group not short time,
and performed some real works.
in the course of study system,
i come to have interest in condensed matter physics.
i found it very interesting,
and would like to study more of it.
i don't know they are going to accept
me or not, but
before contacting other faculties,
i thought telling you what i am thinking
is right thing first.

goal, dream?

I don't want my personal dream and goal to rely on the general standard of this society. I don't want to think of far future which is unseen.

Here I am standing in front of the tall mountain with a lot of beauty. I want to understand this structure of the theory eventually, and gain insight of nature.

love music..

i cannot think of anything except music
which fills my mind so warmly..
it's so touching and moving.
it's blessing. it's love.
i deeply respect musicians
who float the soul of human on music..

temporary.

i am missing people now.
people who smile at me.
people who stroke softly.
people whom I leaned on.
wish I can feel the warmth again now.
this emotion will leave too.
one day in near future,
i will recover and feel strong again.

artist

james cameron visited our school today.

one thing i got to know was that he sees exciting things and be admired by that deeply.

his life is so full of cool things to think of and talk about.

Indeed this world is such a wonderful place to look at it.

artist is the one who see through it and enjoy it.

socialists and politicians see the defects of the world and try to reform it.

for them this world is full of injustice and incomplete system.

for them people need to be enlightened to more ideal society.

however artist sees the beauty of this world, the place with full of wonder.

as a scientist i am in the position to see beauty of nature closely..

that is the attitude i ever wanted. that's the life i ever dreamed of.

inspire

it's always inspiring to think of people who are optimistic, positive, and persistent.

life becomes more easy, accessible, and enjoyable whatever comes.

I appreciate to know such people. Thanks a lot.

new attitude, new life

there are obstacles i am facing, and haven't seriously tried to fix it.

i was sceptic about the possibility of being changed without being persistent.

now i believe there will be a transformation at some point.

before that moment i keep going on and cultivate myself.